Inspiring

I really love this video. It's short and sweet and very inspirational. I plan on buying this book and reading while in the hospital and the days following. I will let you all know how it goes :-)

Lots Of Thoughts

I am so busy today! I have so much to get done before Sunday and here I am blogging. There are so many thoughts going through my mind right now. Most of which are very exciting :-) I know God's Hand is all over this because I am not really nervous about the surgery itself. Just what it will be like when I wake up and the day after. Not knowing I guess is what has me wondering.

I hope to sit down and journal my thoughts later today or tomorrow but I have to get busy doing what I need to do first.

BTW - I have lost a total of 8lbs so far :-)

Setting Goals

It occured to me yesterday that I probably should be setting some realistic goals. Like I want to lose this much my this time and I want to be into this outfit by this date. I hadn't really set many goals except that I want to be in the 150's and a size 8. The more I thought about the more I thought I should set small goals along the way to my ultimate goal.

So I got my calendar out last night and mapped out the rest of the entire year week by week and noted my surgeversary each month and then I began to pray that God would help me set attainable goals. I am letting Him lead me because under my own power I will probably set the bar pretty low so I won't be so disappointed if I don't make it. I don't want to set my standards low but I also want to be realistic.

A Liquid Fast Is NOT All That

It's almost been a week since I began my liquid diet. It's been a whole lot harder than I thought it would be. Especially during March Madness when every other commercial is about food. During this fast a lot of my food issues have surfaced and I have no choice but to face them head-on.

This morning as I was making my first shake of the day I thought to myself I might as well go back to bed. All I get to have today is liquid stuff. Really? My whole day revolves around what I get or don't get to eat? I guess I am starting to realize it did. I shouldn't want to go back to bed because I can't eat. I have two beautiful girls to enjoy, a house to clean and lots of things to do today. And food does not have to be the center of all of it!

It's really hard to admit & face that reality, but if this whole process is going to work for my life than it's necessary. It has to work!

The Day After The First Day

Yesterday I had my first full day of the liquid fast. I felt pretty yucky last night. Slept pretty good, without any kids in my bed! Woke up this morning and had lost 5lbs. Wow! 5lbs in one day.

I have resorted to drinking black coffee with a little Splenda. Coffee in the shakes was pretty terrible. I have also resorted to throwing down my shakes because I just can't stomach them. I tried jazzing them up, freezing them and sipping, but just couldn't finish them. So I guess I am doing protein shots now. Feeling a little weak now. I hope that subsides soon. I have a lot to do today!

I spent most of the afternoon yesterday watching another series of Youtube videos of a girl that has weight loss surgery and has documented the past 20 months. Very, very interesting. I gleened a lot from all that she said and will share a lot of what I learned along the way. Very eye opening!

That's all I have today! I hope you all have a wonderful day :-)

Liquid Fast

I attended my class yesterday. It was very informative and a little frightening. Brooks asked me when I got out if I was having second thoughts. I am in no way having second thoughts I just know a little more what to expect. Like I didn't know I would be having staples on the outside of my stomach for a week and I won't be able to drink water the entire day of the surgery.

I also began my liquid fast last night. I did find out some really good news at my class. I can put black coffee in my shakes. Yay, Yay! They told me it would taste just like a Frappucino. Well it doesn't taste like a Frap, but it does have a slight coffee taste and just enough pick me up. So I was super excited about that. Drank some plain chicken broth last night and rather enjoyed it. I can also have Crystal Light, SF popsicles, SF Jello, tea, black coffee and water. The broth has actually been my favorite thing so far. Weird I know!

This is going to be a little tougher than I was anticipating, but I know I can get through it with a lot of prayer and a little broth :-)

Needing Coffee

This morning I woke up a little off. I guess weaning myself off of coffee is going to be a little more of a challenge than I thought. I can have coffee on my liquid fast I just can't have creamer in it. What's the point of drinking it then? I may resort to liking black coffee when all is said and done.

Today I go to a class and receive my liquid fast stuff so I can start this evening. I have all kinds of thoughts swirling around my head right now. Trying to keep myself occupied as to not think too hard about it all.

Stuffing My Gord

We celebrated Ally's 5th birthday over the weekend. We had lots of family and friends here so of course we ate lots of good food and had lots of fun!

Brooks asked me the other night how I was going to handle not having food for awhile since I start my liquid fast tomorrow. And frankly I am ready. I don't really feel like I will be missing anything. Nothing is good right now. Even my favorite food pizza doesn't settle well and just really doesn't taste all that good. I did spend the weekend and today getting in the last little bit I could. I got a latte at Starbucks, had Chick fil a, had Twinkies and we are having tacos for dinner.

This will be longest two weeks for me. I am so very ready to take on my new challenges. I know it won't be easy, but well worth the effort.

Saying Goodbye To An Old Friend

Something I struggle desperately with is Dr. Pepper. It's just something that I love. I don't allow myself to have more than one a day, but one a day is far too much in my opinion. And sometimes that one is a large Sonic Dr. Pepper. Up until recently I had quit ordering a large and mostly got a small and sometimes a medium. But over the last week or so I have started ordering a large again.

As I was cleaning yesterday my thoughts ran circles around giving up Dr. Pepper and why I was drinking so much right now. Won't this sudden jump in consumption make it even harder to give up next wk? And then the thought came to me it's like when you know you won't see someone for a very long time or even possibly never again you spend as much time with them as you can. Not that Dr. Pepper is a person or anything but I feel like I have to say goodbye to that particular thing in my life and want to drink as much as I can before I bid adieu. Sounds silly I know. But that is how I have to treat it.

I love DP but know it can't be such a big part of my diet. I am not gonna say I will never ever drink one as long as I live again, but I am determined that it will become a very rarety for me to have one. It's just not good for me and it is a No-No after surgery. Will you pray for me as I struggle with giving this up?

My Farewell Tour

Next week I begin a 2 wk liquid diet leading up to my surgery. So I am currently on what I like to call my farewell tour. Meaning I am eating all my favorite foods before I begin my liquid diet and say goodbye to a lot of these foods forever, or at least a very long time. I think God is already preparing me because so many of my so-called favorite foods aren't even tasting good or not setteling well with me. With the exception of Dr. Pepper I am not sure if I will miss most of the junk. Of course I can say that now because I can have them, but I am really praying and believeing that God will take away those cravings and desires to eat those things that I know are bad for me. That is why I have decided to treat my liquid diet as a liquid fast. I am fasting all these things, praying and believing for great things to come out of all of this.

And So It Begins

Well, I am about to embark on what may be the most challenging journey of my life. As you all know I have made the very BIG decision to have weight loss surgery. I never, ever thought I would be one of those people who would make this choice. How did I get to this point in my life where I even needed to do this? I am really not all that certain, but it is what it is and I have made my decision.

So much prayer and thought have gone into this and I am certain of my choice. This is the best thing in the world for me right now, in so many ways. Ways I hope to share with you along the way. I have had so much support from my most wonderful husband, family and friends. I can't help but be excited where this will lead.

I decided that I would blog my way through this incredible journey. One I know won't be without it's difficult times. My brother in law suggested I get a journal to document my progress. I thought that was a wonderful idea, so this will be my journal. I hope you all will join me as I post my progress, my thoughts, my sturggles and my wins. I would also appreciate your prayers!

I love you all dearly and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the support and encouragment I have already received!

On My Way.....

Kazia