Sunday, June 12, 2011

What Will I Wear Now???

Well, my closet pity party is over.  Friday morning, for some reason, I decided I should try on everything in my closet and get rid of anything that doesn't fit anymore. Honestly I wanted to get rid of anything that stirred up all the bad emotions.  I had just done this like a month ago so I wasn't really expecting to have much of anything else to get rid of.  I just thought I might have a few more to toss in the pile.  As I tried on shirt after shirt I was amazed at how big everything was. I truly couldn't believe that 90% of the clothes in my closet were TOO BIG!!!  With the exception of a couple of shirts, I think I tossed all my X-Large shirts, my size 14 pants (a very generous size 14), all of my sweaters and most of my knit tops.  I did, however, hold onto my very favorite pair of pants that I always wore pre-surgery.  These serve as a reminder of how far I've come.  If I get brave enough I will take a picture of my wearing them and post it here someday. I love the feeling of getting rid of 90% of my clothes and with that 90% I get to also toss out the physical & emotional baggage that comes with being overweight.

I couldn't figure out what to do with all these clothes.  I tried to re-sale the really nice ones, but the resale shop didn't want them (frown-frown) and I didn't want to donate them to just any charity . I wanted someone who really could use them get them.  I just couldn't figure out what to do with them.  And then I remembered that our church is having a clothing drive for a local women's shelter in August.  I was so overjoyed to be able to donate my clothes to such a worthwhile cause.  I look at that pile of clothes and think what a waste of money because more than 1/2 of that pile I probably wore one, maybe two times.  And some of it I never wore.  But knowing that someone who may not have anything will be getting them brightens my day and erases all the bad feelings tied to those clothes.

Now for the fun part ~ Shopping for smaller clothes.  I just can't bring myself to spend a whole lot on clothes until I am closer to goal, but I will have to buy a few things.  I will also have to buy new jeans sooner than later, but I am very hesitant as trying on jeans has always been a source of great frustration so I am putting that off as long as I possibly can.

1 comment:

Lee Ann said...

What a great feeling to get rid of so many clothes! Yes, kinda tragic when you think of the amount of money spent on them---but! They aren't going to waste. I haven't had surgery yet but I went from a size 18 pants last summer to a 14 this summer. I saved my favorite pair of sz 18 capris (they already look huge to me) and I totally plan on having one of those pictures of me having a party in my fat pants. You know, the one where I'm standing inside one leg and holding out the other leg!? I can't wait.