One Year Later

Today's the day!  My one-year surgeversary!!!  Wow, what a year it has been.  Actually, it doesn't even feel like it was a year ago that I had surgery.  I can't believe how fast it has flown by.  One year ago at this time I was anxiously sitting in the waiting room, ready to be called back for surgery.  And now 93 lbs lighter I can honestly I have never regretted it, not even for a moment!

Someone asked me just yesterday if I was happier since I lost weight.  I really had to think about that one.  My happiness should not be tied into my weight, but in so many ways it was.  I always had the joy of the Lord, but happiness and joy are two seperate things.  When I think back on the years of being so overweight and trying desperately, to no avail to lose it I get a very dark cloud over me.  I guess I didn't realize just how dark those years were until now.  Now that I am on the other side.  Don't get me wrong I had a lot of suuny times, but overall life for me was cloudy.

I am so very happy that I don't have to live that way anymore :-)  I feel like a new person.  God gave me a second chance at this life (literally, i was killing myself by the way I was living) and I am so very grateful.  I think I will spend sometime this day reading back on my old posts and reflecting my journey. In no way is my journey over.  In some ways it has just begun.  Now the hard part really starts, maintenance.  Sometimes I think about gaining weight and it scares me!!!  

I hope to post some relective things in the next little bit and maybe some new recipes I've been trying, thank you Pinterest :-),  and I will continue to blog because I need the accoutability to stay on track.  A great big hug and thanks to everyone who has made this journey possible.  I love each and every one of you with all my heart.  I hope you all have a very blessed day!!!!

I Reached My Goal!!!!

Almost a year ago I was hopeful to say those words, but still uncertain I ever would.  But here I am shouting from the rooftops that I met my goal!!!!  Actually I met it about 22 days ago but I haven't taken the time to sit down and write about it. 

This coming Wednesday will be my one-year surgeversary.  I can't believe it!  I have been very reflective lately on what was hapening in my life a year ago.  Hopeful, but uncertain.  Scared, but excited.  I had no idea what to expect and I as far as I am concerned, I have exceeded my own expectations.

I guess I can consider myself in the maintenance phase of life.  That to me is even more scary than the surgery itself.  I would still like to lose 5 more lbs just to give myself a little wiggle room and to be a normal BMI.  Right now I am right on the border of overweight and normal weight.  I've never really paid attention to that stupid BMI chart, but now that I am so close I guess I guess it means more to me.

93 pounds down is a dream to me.  Now I must work hard to keep them off:-)